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● 2015 · 10
▼ Messages 10
Now I think about how the catastrophic happening, which happened regarding my situation in 1986, had something overwhelming attached to how it happened. I think about how it seems like, that all the implicated individuals, who took part in this situation, look like playing pieces on a playing board. Placed there in a game, which was arranged so it all turned out in a planned way. And my own role was also in that way; I had been manoeuvred to a fixed placing on the playing board. When the game was over that summer in 1986, during six months, I could not remember what had happened any longer, all of it was 100% gone in my mind.
What today has happened; I think is, that I have been able to find back, to what happened, which the summer in 1986, was gone all of it, so I did not remember anything. Now it is possible for me to look back on what happened. That is something I think I never should have been able to do. It was a terrible game.
It seems like this playing board had been prepared from 1976 to 1986. It had taken 10 years to arrange this playing board, which this situation in 1986 looks like.
If we had understood what happened, it had been possible to prevent this situation in 1986. Especially it hat been possible to prevent it from beginning. By understanding it today, it will be possible to put things straight. This is 29 years afterwards; that are many years. But in proportion to that the plan has been, that it never should have been put right, it is not so bad. It is not easy to correct something, which it should have been impossible to find out about.
The play was; that all the moves, were moves which hid their outcomes. Every time, everywhere, all these moves were like moves towards to trapdoors, which every time resulted in new worsenings.
For me it is; that something must happened, before I can understand something. I can not understand something, before something has happened; but it has been possible for me to understand something afterwards.
Regarding this; I also think about that these influences, by these criminals who use mind control; get people to look like, and behave like, programmed robots. But they can not understand it themselves. This is that these influences have a kind of steering way of being, or something like that. And this steering way of being, is something which looks like something which takes control over managing functions, which cause thoughts, feelings, behaviours, etc.
I have thought about how these influences are done. I think they are done in different ways. But one way I think they maybe are done, are in ways which controls how individuals are doing all kind of different things, etc.
The reason why this crime not has been uncovered; is that this method is used. It is used to hinder people in finding out about it. This method is also very conquering, so influenced individuals can not find out what it is which has happened to them.
It is very likely that this goes on. And; it is also likely, that this is very difficult to find out about.
To know and understand about a road from A to B, you must go that way. I write this because I want to say; that only to see a little bit of something, is not enough. It is necessary to use time and find out about something, to be able to understand something.
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Something I have thought about, since early in the 1990s; is that these influences come in, as a blockage between the meaning with a human's existence, and the human's personality. At that time I had got different results of these influences, in a way which started to mislead me to find out wrong about this.
This understanding has been something with a strong presence in my thoughts all the time since then. It is something I still understand that is, like that.
I think that we humans, which have a very social nature, and the individuals one by one; exist by a kind of meaning with our existence. And these criminals who use mind control, make influences which hinder this meaning behind our existence; and their own intentions come in, and take its place instead. I do not think that this fundamental meaning is deciding over a human's life; but that it is something, which more is, like something, which want something generally with all us humans.
In this way; these influences stop the original fundamental influence in us, and take the place this original fundamental influence has.
In this way; I think these criminals understand, that they are doing crimes, which are of fundamental meaning regarding what humans are.
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When I start to write this text, I have two issues in mind:
1. These criminals who use mind control, cause situations which influence peoples. These situations influence the peoples, it is not the peoples who influence the situations. (This is only a theoretical way of stating it, in an unfinished thought process, and not a finished true definition.)
2. There is only one type of humans in this world. That is also all we know about the whole universe. As we know, it is only one type of humans in the universe. Because of this, it is important for us humans, with our modern knowledge and possibilities today, to understand that we must find peaceful and credible solutions to our different disagreements. Because no humans have more human value than other humans; that is the truth which is in the bottom of the human race. (This is only a key word, for development of a more worked out way of thinking.)
These two topics get me to think, that the human way of being, seeks understanding between humans. But these criminals, cause situations which work against this human way of being. And they cause; that peoples start to ruin each other, instead of understanding each other.
I think that we humans can win to be humans; or we can loose to be humans.
Our human possibilities must be able to win. We must protect our possibility to be humans. I think these criminals ruin our possibility to be humans.
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Now I also get thoughts about, that the historical situation regarding the humans' development of human rights, has to do with that we humans are equal. It is necessary for us to develop our understanding about this, as an understanding about what we are.
There are different aspects regarding us humans. It looks like, there are infinite ways of being, for us humans. But I think that thoroughly understanding, more and more will show clearer and clearer; that we can win to be humans, or we can loose to be humans. Either we win together; or we loose together.
And together we must fight these criminals, who use mind control. And that means, that there are some humans we must fight. I think these criminals are the weakest and most dangerous humans who ever will be. I think these criminals are the most dangerous which ever will happen among us humans. So humans can be dangerous for humans; but I think that is because something has gone wrong among us humans. These criminals should not had the possibility, to develop something as dangerous, as they have done, in secret. That is something which never can be done possible again. No humans are secret Gods! This means that transparency and openness in the societies and in the whole world; always must be protected in the future.
I think that it is the meaning with us humans, that we shall be able to always fight dangerous problems like these criminals, who use mind control. I think that there are overwhelming positive and good qualities with us humans. Something has gone wrong, when negative and bad tendencies gain much possibilities.
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This has also got me to think about, how the situation which ruined the situation for my family and friends in 1986, also was a situation which caused the problems. It was not the humans which caused the situation; these criminals had caused that situation. To understand about this, makes this understanding about how such situations cause problems, quite clear and crispy for me.
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Today I got some thoughts, which I thought I should write down. As the most of these notes on these messages pages, these also only are like thought impulses. These thoughts are not worked out and finished texts:
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Poor and necessitous peoples around in the world; have not been hindered in getting a good standard of living, they have been hindered in creating a good standard of living. This has to do with how the world today, are controlled by how it shall be taken out profit of each and every humans' work. The most important for this world; is not egoistic profit. My thoughts about this; is that I just now, have tried to formulate something about these thoughts, this is not a finished formulation. These thoughts have only come out with a way of stating the problem regarding this.
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If a person takes power over other people; that person gets control over every single person's personal power. This is something different people have done at all times, during our history, for many thousands of years, and down to today. There can have been used soldiers, weapons, force and compulsion. There can have been used boasting and rewards. There can have been used lies and created delusions. All kinds of psychological manipulations can have been used. And many other ways of getting power over other people, can have been used. Such people have always controlled what it is, which shall be written in the history books. Attempts to criticize them; have always resulted in a cruel punishment and a complete suppression of the truth.
I think this can be something regarding these criminals who use mind control. They are weak. They do not have strength themselves. And they use extremely dangerous means and methods, to get power over other people. What these criminals are doing, has never been done before in our history. I do not know what it is with them; but I think it can be, that they are pure criminals in that words strongest meaning. I think they are 100% depraved. What such people experience as strength; is control over other humans' power.
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These two notes, can also have something to do with each other. I think these criminals have been doing their crimes for a very long time. They can have influenced us much, regarding how we are looking at the world around us. So; we not at once can understand about what they have done, and about how they have changed our way of doing things. They will not let people around in the world, come free from their control; which they slowly make stronger and stronger year after year. This is something I think. I do not have any information about what they are doing.
I think that these criminals turn these historical things upside down. That is because; when people were able to break free from the historical power over them, then people started to despise these earlier power holders, and their maliciously selfish wealth. Because of this; it looks like, these criminals are turning everything upside down. They are influencing everything to look like the opposite, so it shall look like, this historical power was something good. They have influenced people; so it looks like, it is the people who are the cruel people. They are making a false world, where things are like they are, because of these criminals' influences. And these influences shall make people believe in them who are suppressing them again. What today otherwise had been the situation; I think is something we do not know what is, because that is something which never happened.
I look at this problem, in this way: This is very much bad. But already by being able to better a little bit of it, it already results in a better feeling and good experience. Already a little; means a lot.
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After the message yesterday, Saturday, April 11; I got some thoughts about another human factor of importance. This is also something it is possible to see, that has been more or less considerable in the course of our history. I think about how humans has shown a tendency to worship and glorify a human, or humans, they start to have as a superior power. I have thought about that there are two sides regarding suppression, and both are important; these are suppression, and to submit oneself under an oppressor. These two sides work together. Of course there typical ends with an impossible situation, after some time, for the people under an oppressor.
Humans are social beings. We function together in a mutual way, where different human qualities influence each other and create common development. We humans must typical see things from different sides. Someone who want to lie, can say that something only has one side, or some sides can be removed. When these other sides are brought in, the whole situation can typical become totally different.
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If we think about money; it is possible to say, that the money system can be something very useful for us humans, and in that way also something very valuable. But life has many sides, and to care too much about one side of it, as money, can be a mistake. It is possible to be too much single‐tracked regarding economics; especially for the society as a whole.
I think that economics has got a too much decisive role in the world today. I think it has developed an unbalance regarding this; other important things for us humans in this world, also have importance.
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I think that these criminals who use mind control, are busy with doing something with the different sides regarding us humans. These different sides, which we have to hold together; to understand correctly about things, regarding our lives and societies. I think that they are influencing us in a way, where the different sides in our lives and societies, are brought out of their correct proportions. And I think that in this way, they have been able to totally ruin many important things for us humans.
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I also think about that these criminals who use mind control; are some people in this world, who not have many like‐minded. I think that is one of the factors, which has influenced them to start doing what they are doing; they totally hide how they do extremely malicious things.
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The last week I have been enormously taken up with pipes and pipe tobaccos; and the pipes I had before, when I was a youth. Below there is a picture of a type of Norwegian rolling tobacco I smoked for some time. This is important, because these criminals have influenced me to remember totally wrong about all such things form my past. During the time I used this rolling tobacco, they have influenced me to remember that I used a pipe I never had. Such things function like derailments for the memory; and lead one out of what is correct, into nothing, where a totally different person than that one I was, starts to appear for my memory.
This week there have been very much for me, regarding pipes and tobaccos. And I understand that I was introduced to pipe smoking from my first days on the Earth. I sat on the laps of my grandfathers when they smoked their pipes. I can remember that I become interested in the pipes when I only was a few years old. Both pipe smoking and cigar smoking where connected with much joy and cheerfulness all the time during my years of growth. So now I understand that there have been very much such things regarding pipes and tobaccos in my early life.
To write something of interest, in this regard; I can write about, that I have thought about how these fake memory images, force oneself to remember these fake memory images. This is done that way, you are forced to remember these fake memory images.
It is difficult with these fake memory images. Because they become so very crisp and clean. I have also learned that these memory images, typical are put together of different parts, which give these fake memories something more to go on. Those things are something you normally would have thought, that function like evidences; but instead they function like reinforcements of a wrong memory. Such things can be; that other people also do or say something, and both, regarding what it is about, which makes the fake memory image even more credible.
For a long time now, I have understood that; that these fake memory images, typical are more clearly than the correct memories. And by understanding more and more about this, it has been possible for me to more and more find out correct. Typical there are possible to find out so much, that these fake memory images become more and more improbable. These face memory images can also typical often be something which in themselves are too much incredible.
When I more remember correct about the whole picture about my whole life; all these things become more and more possible to find out correct about.
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After the last message, April 19, all these pipe and tobacco things become clearly set out for me.
First it was, that I early had two pipes. First a straight pipe, and after that a bent pipe. It is a picture of two pipes similar to these pipes in Messages 5; Tuesday, April 8, 2014. The bent pipe was a very good pipe; not a most expensive one, but a really good one. That pipe fell in the sea by a wharf in the summer 1972. The straight pipe was not bad either, it was a cheap one. I threw that pipe in the rubbish bin, when I had bought the better bent pipe.
When I lost that pipe in 1972, I went to a shop and bought cigarette paper. From then onwards I smoked rolling tobacco for some years. Mostly I smoked a tobacco from a Norwegian company, 'A. Asbjørnsens Tobacco Factory'; called 'Eventyrblanding' (Fairy Tale Mixture). On the front of that pack of tobacco, it was a drawing of a fox which smoked a pipe. The smart fox is a well known figure in the Norwegian folk tales.
In Norway, Asbjørnsen and Moe (Peter Christen Asbjørnsen 1812 ‐ 1884 and Jørgen Moe 1813 ‐ 1882) collected all the Norwegian folk tales. We had all these folk tales at home when I was a child, three large books. I had read many of these folk tales several times, and could have told some of them without the books.
When I was a child, together with my mother's mother at the alpine pasture, in the summer vacations; she told such folk tales for me without having the books. That was at night; when I had gone to bed, in the light from the kerosene lamp. The farm animals had calmed themselves down in the cow barn, today's work was done, outside the mountain cottage it was only the wind which could be heard, as it blew over the large mountains. It was possible to see mountain top after mountain top in the daytime, but at night only dark shadows could be seen outside the windows with small window panes, under the quiet starry sky. Sometimes there were stormy weather, but the mountain cottage build with logs, could stand against the storm; so inside the cottage it was snug and cozy in the heat from the wood fuel stove.
So this fox on the front of this pack of tobacco, was something I connected with these folk tales.
On the photograph from 1975 in Message 6; Wednesday, April 16, 2014; I can see that I smoke a ordinary bent pipe. I do not remember when I bought that pipe, but I think it was after we moved to that basement flat. I also think it was a quite cheap, but usable pipe, which became better and better. I do not nor remember when I stopped smoking that pipe. But on the photograph from 1976, under the 'Images' link on the top of the web site, and 'Photo Album', picture 38; I can see that I make my own cigarette from rolling tobacco.
So when these criminals did this influence against me early in 1976, I am quite sure about that I smoked that bent pipe. And now I can understand, that they have done something regarding that. That photograph from 1975 is from my parent's photo album. I have seen it a few times before, and it has always changed in my memory afterwards. The pipe has always changed to a black sand jetted half bent long pipe, which I never managed to bring about so it became a good pipe. And here comes what this is about, all of these are shortened:
I have had a fake memory image, about that I first smoked a cheap filter pipe, with a pipe bowl which I could screw off and on. Both the filter under the pipe bowl, and in the straight pipe stem, become very much burned. The pipe stem under the bowl also become burned and had melted a little. I became angry at that pipe, and threw it away. I would never have such a pipe again. After that, I should have had a long bent pipe, with a loose stem between a very large pipe bowl and the mouthpiece. I broke the stem between, down by the bowl, and had to use it as a short pipe.
One of my friends had also a similar pipe, which looked the same; but his pipe was stronger than mine. He did not broke his stem between the bowl and the mouthpiece. And I could see him sitting satisfied and smoking his pipe; when I had fumbled my long stem to pieces, and I had to use it as a short pipe. Also many years after my wife and I had been divorced, when I visited him again, he still had his pipe, and sat satisfied and smoked his pipe. When I did not know where my pipe had disappeared.
He got married with my wife's sister. And now I understand this in that way; that these criminals have influenced me to get this memory image, in a way where I never should understand anything about it. I should only become influenced by this without understanding anything about it. This memory image has been very crisp and clean in my mind for a very long time now. But yesterday I understood this, and found out about it.
This is like a new breakthrough for me. Like a little piece which makes me understand it all. Not completely, but as I understand what this is about. I also get feelings like coming free, coming out off a locked up capsule, looking up over the hill so I can see the landscape, the piece into the picture in a puzzle which makes me see what the picture is, etc.
So this last discovery, really makes me feel that I have come a great step forward. I also think that they have wanted to ruin my interest for pipe smoking. Earlier I looked at pipe smoking as something funny. I liked the smell of the tobacco. I had an idea about smoking a little pipe. I think these criminals have influenced me to never succeed in that. I always should buy too many pipes, and smoke too much, so I always had to stop again. They have wanted to ruin my interest for pipe smoking, which was to only smoke a little bit pipe.
I also think that they have influenced me to smoke cigarettes, instead of a pipe.
Below there is a picture of a similar pipe, which looks like that I had in 1975, the tobacco tin, and a matchbox which I used at that time.
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After this, I also start to think about what follows:
It is the people themselves, who create a good society. It is impossible for both the politicians, and the police, to create a good society. The politicians and the police can only form the basis of a good society, and protect the people's possibility to maintain a good society. The society; that is the people themselves.
People have to understand, and find out, about why different things go on and happen. When the people have the power, they also are responsible for how the society is. Today this can look complicated; but I think that is because things have become messed up. In reality I think it is not that much complicated. Then, that also is the problem; to find out about what it is which is the much more simple explanation. Of course this little note only is a little to bring this view of the situation to the fore.
There is no doubt about, that I think it is these criminals who use mind control, who have caused this incomprehensible situation in the societies and in the whole world. There is need for good thinking and understanding, to find out about these tings; these criminals only cause that others ruin for each others, they do not attack us in openness by themselves.
This requires thinking, understanding and collaboration, to find out what it is which really goes on. I think they most of all are afraid of a peaceful and intelligent counterattack. And that needs a peaceful social situation, which I think, is what these criminals most of all are afraid of. Peace is what they most of all is afraid of. And this is something important, for all the humans in the world today to understand.
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In connection to the previous messages April 19, and April 21; there is some more supplementary information in addition to that.
The two first pipes I had, was: First a brown common straight pipe, with a small round bowl. The next was a common black sand jetted bent pipe, with a standard bowl. The third which I had a few years afterwards, was a small and common brown bent pipe.
This fake memory image about pips, are: First a straight black sand jetted bad filter pipe, with a bowl which could be screwed off and on, a round filter with a round hole in the middle under the bowl, and another filter in the stem. The stem, also under the bowl, was made of plastic. Then a brown long pipe, with a large abnormal high bowl, and a long stem between the bowl and the mouthpiece. It could be used as a short pipe also. After I got married, it should be a half bent long black sand jetted pipe, which I newer managed to bring about to be a good pipe.
I think there can be something, regarding how this fake memory images; change the pipes I really had, when I earlier remembered them by this fake memory image. For some time now, down to these days; all the pipes have been in my memory, both the real pipes, and they in the fake memory images.
I also remember that I was interested in these pips, with bowls it was possible to screw off and on. I thought they were a little too expensive. But I think I had thoughts about buying such a pipe some time.
Regarding that one of my friends, had a stronger brown long pipe, than me; I also think about, that it is, that when I visited him again, some years afterwards, his marriage had lasted, but mine had broken. Corresponding the pipes in this memory image. (No one of us, had these pips.)
How the broken brown long pipe in this memory image, gets a meaning regarding my broken marriage; is what gives me this experience of a new breakthrough. That was what I understood at Monday. But everything regarding this memory image, has only been something I have understood for a few days now. To understand this, is to understand something I not should have understood; and to do that, is a breakthrough.
It is like breaking out of a fake state; out of a wrong understanding about what I am, and what things around me are.
I get an strong experience of how this influence have intervened in everything regarding my marriage, family, friends, and work; in 1976 and afterwards. And I get an experience of that I now understand something about it all. This is what it is, which is the new breakthrough for me in these days.
I just now, also start to think that this is an example of how these criminals can cause a feeling and a state, there you are brought into a false experience about who you are. This is that such memory images can change one's impression of what one's situation is. Both what the situation around you are; and because of that, also who you are yourself. Exactly this example has to do with something like this; and I think that way of doing these things, can be something these criminals have learned about how they can to do different things with. In addition to that, I think they can do many different other things with what they are doing. What I have written about here, is something I just now, started to understand.
This also makes unconscious fake associations, which you do not think about or understand.
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There can also be of interest to know, that pipe smokers can smoke the pipe without inhaling the smoke into the lungs. By sitting and smoke the pip fore some time, the effect from the nicotine comes gradually after some time, not immediately as when the smoke is inhaled. Pipe smoking is something there has been written many books about, and it is surround by much more knowledge, thoughts, and ideas; than cigarette smoking. I think these criminals, have wanted to do smoking so dangerous as they can. And that is something important to understand, because I think that really is very dangerous. There are no doubt about that smoking is connected with health damages.
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Something important regarding that people become addicted to nicotine; I think is that people do not understand what happen to themselves, when they smoke for the first time. I think this much is the problem. And because of that, this also is what is dangerous. People are dragged into being addicted to nicotine, without understanding what happen to themselves. It has to do with what we humans think is our own will. Addicted to nicotine is very much that it influences people's will. What is one's will in such a situation? I have thought much about that. And I think it is important to understand about this, and understand that the nicotine never can be allowed to decide that oneself shall smoke.
A human do not so easy understand, that it is the nicotine itself, which has got oneself to want a smoke. But that is what it is very important to always understand in a very strong way. This is something sneaking, and it is necessary to understand it immediately; not let it begin to decide that oneself shall smoke, that becomes more and more, and more and more frequently. Nicotine can cause dependence for nicotine, but regarding nicotine, I think that dependence is how it influences one's will. It is necessary to understand that one's will, not shall be controlled by the nicotine. This is only a few words about this subject.
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In messages April 21, and April 23; I write about the memory image regarding a cheap filter pipe, with a pipe bowl which I could screw off and on. In this memory image, it also was that this pipe was bought in a shiny black cheap box, with a plastic window as if it was a toy for children. There was also two pipe bowls, to one straight stem; a black sand jetted, and a dark brown. But when I start to concentrate on it, it change and change. I shall not be able to find out something correct, because it is only a fake memory image they have influenced me to get.
I have shortened all about these, therefore I left out these things I write about here. But I can not get exactly this pipe out of my mind. It continues to be something, which it is something more about, in connection with this influence I have been exposed to.
I can also insert; that the long pipe, with a stem between the bowl and the mouthpiece; that pipe had grown old in my mind. The stems had paled a little, in a little unequal ways; in the ends of the stem between, etc. But I can not remember that it was brand new. This is something which makes such a memory image more credible. And such things are something typical in many different ways, regarding these memory images. Many times such memory images are made up, with different things, which shall work like confirmations for each other.
What is this unrest in my mind, about this? I ask myself that question just now. I think; is it a feeling, which it can be possible to trust, so it is possible to find out more? But after that, I thought; these criminals can cause feelings, so it becomes wrong feelings which mislead oneself. Is it thoughts; which it is possible to trust? But these criminals can cause thoughts also; which becomes misleading. What can it be; which can cause these possibilities to find out about these influences. And after I have written about this until here, I start to think; that it is because I have been so detailed and exactly, regarding finding out about what it was which is correct. Because I have found out detailed and exactly about many things, these fake memory images do not fit in any longer.
The next approach to the problem, is; I could also have been so detailed and exactly with believing in these fake memory images. What is it, which has caused that I have been able to find out correctly about these tings? The questing has been made; and I try to find an answer. The first I think about, is that I always have thought about these tings in a way, where I think about that they want to trick me. I think about that all the time. The next is; that I all the time have gone over everything down to every small detail. I have not believed in what I think, feel, and remember.
All the time I have understood that I must come behind how these influences are fooling me. And I have in many ways thought that I have to work with this as a machine, which not does human errors. It has been to uncover and uncover and uncover; always do more and more and more. Always be calm and balanced, never believe in my own rage, these criminals have wanted me to be angry the way they want. I have also always understood that they have influenced me to get all kinds of wrong feelings, which only motivates me in terrible wrong ways, etc. I have always had my focus on these criminals; them, them, them; do never stop to have that focus, it is them, them, them.
To fight against them, has much been to fight against how they have influenced me, how this influences give me all kinds of wrong feelings and thoughts. I have never stopped to look at this that way. But this is not the same as a fight; it is much more about being master of one's feelings, especially dangerous feelings, and to understand and find out, etc. These criminals do not fight themselves, they get all of us to fight against each other; therefore our fight against them, is much inside all of us. We have to understand about how this work inside ourselves.
I have gone backwards; instead of forward. I have thought about that I shall find out what they have done to me; instead of being what they have wanted me to be.
I have moved towards the beginning; instead of towards the end. Therefore I today am so far away from the end, as it is possible to be. This is also something I clearly have thought about, that is something I must do, as a necessary tactical maneuver. Because, when I do that; I can be sure about that I never will be what they have wanted to. But it has been beginnings of influences, to try to trick me away from this tactic also; wrong things, which suddenly seemed to be something very correct.
To be so alone; has two sides in my case. It should have protected these influences from being stopped. But in my case; that have done it possible for me to find out correct. No one else had been able to help me with that; because this is something unknown. If anybody think that has been easy; they think more wrong than they can understand. It has not been easy. But it has not been impossible either.
This also shows that it can be possible to write about something, so the writing becomes a way to find out more. One's thoughts become systematized, in a way, which makes it possible to come further.
It is something more, with exactly this pipe. Why two bowls? I can not get that out of my thoughts. The box with the plastic window, is easy to understand; it shall look like a toy. But why two pipe bowls? The first I think; is that it is because it shall be like two pipes, like I had two pipes instead of one. I did never care about having more than one pipe. It was unthinkable for me, to have more than one pipe. The next I think, is; that this shall influence me, to one day, wanting to find such a pipe again, even I in the meantime did not like this plastic pipe.
I shall want to find such a pipe again; in connection with that I shall want to find different things back again. And all these things should then have become wrong, based on these fake memory images about all such tings. It should have been regarding my LP records, my pipes, and about other things. I should have found out about a past, which these criminals had changed in my memory. Regarding pipes, I think I should have become much more interested in pipes, than I originally was in the 1970s. By buying such a pipe again, it first should have been one pipe stem and two pipe bowls; but after that, a stem more to the second bowl also. This interest for pipes, should have influenced me to buy many pipes, and got me to smoke much more that I originally had wanted to do.
I think this is because they want to destroy my personality; and after that, the intention is to build up again a totally different personality. It can also seems like, I am influenced to either smoke too much, or nothing at all; but I can not be absolutely sure about such things. When I try to find a reason for that, I think it is because they want to destroy my personality, which originally was that I had some thoughts about smoking a little bit. I did not want to have more than one pipe, to have more than one pipe, was never in my thoughts. So to change that, seems also as something, which shall destroy my personality.
And it is not only things. Everything in me should have changed; my understanding about what kind of person I am, should have changed completely. My childhood, youth, and early life; should have become something totally different. I should have been something inverted, in relation to who I was in 1976.
I should also have found out wrong abut these criminals, and I think that also should have been in an inverted way.
But now I am sure abut that I have found out correct about everything regarding myself; and also about these criminals, but that is only to a certain extent, it is impossible for me to remember exactly what they have done against me.
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The one or the other extreme, seems to be something typical with how these criminals are doing their influences. It looks like, they causes contrasts; and ruin that different ways of thinking, can find a mutual agreement. Different groups shall destroy each other in a negative way, instead of inspiring each other in a positive way. This can also be regarding different ways of understanding and thinking, about different things.
I wonder if this, can be because their own goal, is something which is an extreme.
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What can a life be, when it is like this? A life like this, is about finding out. Oneself has become like a possibility, to find out about what this can be. They have done this against me, and because of that, it is possible for me to find out something about them. I look at it as something important to do, and that gives meaning to it. Because they have done this to me; to find out about it, has become the meaning with my life. I can win against them inside myself. They have not got me to do, what they in the end, have wanted me to do. That is also something important, it is important that I have been able to prevent it.
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Even if the pipe smoke not is inhale; it is still possible to find out about serious health risks regarding this, on the Internet; for all parts of the mouth. There are also information accessible about other serious health risks regarding pipe smoking, on the Internet. Pipe smoke can also have an inclination to be too hot.
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Being addiction to tobacco smoking, is something I have found out that develops gradually, in six different steps. These steps refers only to tobacco, not other things:
1. Takes a smoke for the first time. Do not feel like having another smoke. But smoke even so a little bit day after day. But not necessarily every day.
2. Starts to like to smoke. A smoke has become something good. There is no need for a smoke. But a smoke has become something good.
3. To smoke, is something which becomes more and more good. Likes better and better to smoke. But do not have any thoughts about starting to smoke regularly. It only is that way.
4. It starts to be a little difficult to let it be. Not so much, but a little bit. There has been a little need for a smoke, after it has gone some time since the last smoke. Not so much, but this leads to smoke after smoke, without thinking about it. Does not think about, that this can be a stronger need.
5. It becomes more and more difficult to let it be. In the beginning of this step, this is not experienced as a problem. But after some time, it has become difficult to let it be. What is difficult, is that the need for a smoke is quite strong. And that feels like, a smoke is something very good. This is also an incipient step, this habit has still not become a part of the identity. This can take shorter or longer time, weeks or months, also years.
6. Smoking has become an ingrained habit, and a part of the identity. The identity is to be a smoker. This habit can be to smoke very little, a little, medium, much, or very much. The problem in this phase of this development; is how the estimation has changed. Harmful effects are minimized, and pushed aside; that is something it has become unpleasant to think about, read about, hear about, and talk about. The way of feeling and thinking about smoking, has changed.
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Today I made yet another discovery regarding those three tobacco pipes I first had. The third of these pipes, is that one, it is possible to see, on a picture from the summer 1975, (picture 27, under the 'Images' link, 'Photo Album'). I have not remembered how I bought that pipe; or how it disappeared. Today I remember; that after I moved from the attic room, where I lived in 1979; and had moved into a new small apartment in 1980, I throw away that pipe. First I scraped away all of the layer which had fixed inside the pipe bowl. This is something which comes after some time, and is something which shall be inside a pipe bowl. But now and then it is necessary to take away a little of it, but not all. I took away all of it, and afterwards I was not able to bring the pipe about to be correctly again; and I throw it away. This was something I earlier had learned how to do, but this time it failed.
Now I think about, that this is something, which happened, when my whole life changed. I lost contact with my old friends. New friends and interests developed. I had much contact with my child. Her mother and I also had much contact. But all of the common situation which we had earlier, was gone. So today I think, that it seems like, that these pipes have had a kind of significance, regarding these influences with mind control against me.
Today this is something which gets me to experience this discovery, as something which brings me back to my original personality. Like it was to throw away my earlier life, to throw away that pipe.
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A few days ago; I also got an understanding about, that I at the same time, was influenced to totally change my interest for music. And very briefly; this is like this:
A memory image; about that I read about Melanie Safka in a music magazine, when I was a child. Because of that, I afterwards remembered her as a musician I should take notice of. I have dated it to 1967, but that is too early, her first record is from 1968, 'Born to Be'. A few days ago, I got thoughts about, that Melanie Safka is hidden away inside of me, together with this episode where I read about her, and that established itself as something I always should remember. I had read about music, and started to be interested in music I had read about, instead of listened to.
The next is; that at that time in 1980, I started to read about music before I bought records. And I read about all kinds of pop and rock music, also uncommon music which a small group people was very interested in. This brought me to buy all different kinds of music, which I first only had read about. Earlier I always had listened to music, which I afterwards had bought records of.
One day, I read a long article about Kevin Coyne, his first record was 'Case History' from 1972. I got interested in his thoughts about humans and humans' mental situation. And I made up my mind to establish him, as a musician I should take notice of in the time to come. But I had not listen to anything of his music. I started to buy all the records I found of him in Oslo. That was only some of them. But year after year it becomes more and more of them, and I had quite many of them after some time. Beyond that, I normally did not buy more than one record of each musicians. But I bought all I could find of Kevin Coyne.
This becomes; that Melanie Safka shall be hidden inside of me, and Kevin Coyne shall come creeping into me, through my continuous buying of his records. I think that this is because I totally shall change my interest for music.
Both Melanie Safka and Kevin Coyne are unique talented musicians; which again and again surprise you in a very positive way, every time you hear something new from them. What is special regarding this for me; is that I started to read about music, before I bought records. And my earlier life was gone. This started in 1980, and become a intermediate stage until 1986. In 1986, my life changed totally again.
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Today I think I have found out about these three pipes I first had in the seventies. This is now so clear for me, that I think it is correct.
First I had a cheap straight brown pipe. That was bought in a kiosk, which was centrally situate together with different other shops in the neighborhood where I lived at that time. It was thrown in a rubbish bin, when I had bought the next pipe.
The second pipe, was a good pipe; which neither was a cheap pipe, nor a very expensive one. That was a black sand jetted bent pipe. It was bought in a tobacconist's shop, in the middle of Oslo town centre. It fell in the sea by a large wharf in 1972.
The third pipe, has now also been placed in my memory. It was a brown bent pipe. I bought it in a small shop which was a couple of minutes from where we lived in 1975. That was a shop, where we could buy the essentials of groceries. That shop also had a bit of everything else. I had seen the pipe in the shop for a while. And I talked to my wife, about that I could buy that pipe, and smoke a little pipe. That shop also had the Richmond pipe tobacco, which can be seen on a photograph from that time. I remember that the shop owner behind the counter, talked well about both the pipe and that pipe tobacco. Early in the eighties, probably in 1980; I scraped away all of the layer inside the pipe bowl, and did not get the pipe to be as it should be again. And then I thrown it in the rubbish bin.
It is like these three pips, has to do with how difficult it has been for me, to remember correctly abut that time of my life again. So today; I look at how I remember these three pipes again, as something, which comes into view in my memory, when I remember very much correctly from that time again.
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How is it with these memory images; which I have found out about? I have not remembered what has been done to me, to make these memory images. I have understood that it must be something that way. And because of that, I have been able to understand that it must be that way, with these memory images.
When I found out about Melanie Safka, as I wrote about in the message yesterday; I first, for a long time ago, had thought about that I not had records with female artists. In 1975 I bought a record with Janis Joplin as a birthday present to my wife. When I thought abut female artists I liked to listen to, from before that time in the seventies; Melanie Safka is one of them.
Then I also for a quite long time, have thought about that I read about her, when I was a child. But for some days ago; I started to think more about this. And I found out, that this must be a memory image. I do not remember that these criminals have done that to me, I only understand that it must be that way.
This was when I also thought about the pipes and Kevin Coyne, as I also wrote about yesterday. And it is the same with him. I can not remember that they have done something, like this to me. I only understand that it must be something that way.
These two seems to be something quite fixed. But I have also thought about; that these criminals can influence by doing things without such fixed people. Such influences can also be like something, which starts to work together with things I care about, and things I think about. Such influences can start to work together with something, which not are stated in these influences. So I do not know about these influences for sure. It can well be that way with these influences also. But I have found out about them the way I have written about.
Humans are not simple things.
It is impossible for me to remember how these influences have been done against me. So this is; that I find out about something it is impossible for me to remember. All of it together, is something it without a doubt, must be something like this regarding.
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After these three tobacco pipes from the seventies, have come correctly back in my conscious memory; it is like, I never had forgotten them. It is like, I always have remembered them crisp and clean.
This is also the same; regarding other things it has been difficult for me to remember again. When I remember these things again, it is like I never had forgotten them.
This is something striking. It is so clear for me, that I have thought about it several times earlier regarding other such things, and I also think about it this time.
This gets me to think, that these memories have been inside me all the time. But my conscious memory has both been without any contact with them, and also had wrong and changed memories regarding them.
This is so remarkable; that it gets me to think, that my real person all the time has been hidden inside me. What has happened; must therefore be, that these manipulations got me to be a manipulated version of myself. Now I think about, that these manipulations do not make another person; these manipulations make a manipulated person.
When I now feel, that I have been the person I was before; I feel that I have been that person the whole time. It is like, that the problem has been to understand, what happens to myself.
This influenced state; is like, that the real myself, only has been hidden inside myself. Therefore this influenced state, has been like being conned by these influences, witch have been put into my subconsciousness.
After I remembered correctly about the third pipe I had in 1975; I now feel strongly that I have reached the end of this development backwards. That was the last. I think that this feeling, is because that pipe had a kind of key role. Now I think, that this was the last thing I had to find out about, to come free from their influence over me.
I also think about, that regarding that pipe, these criminals have influenced me regarding the shop where I bought that pipe and tobacco for it. This is only a little bit of it, but maybe it is something among the first things.
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The last days I have been busy with getting ready a new computer, a laptop. The previous laptop become almost unusable. I am just now finished with that.
I have also the last days had some thoughts about something to write.
It is, that this influence over me; has much been done in a way, where something inside of me shall drive me to find out about them, without never be able to reach that goal. This driving force should have been under control of these influences all the time. In this regard, it is relevant to mention, that it can be difficult to understand how much I have done to reach this understanding I have today. Sometimes I have been busy with this, 24 hours day after day, because I was afraid of losing the clues in my mind. It was much of that kind of activity in the nineties.
In the nineties, I was busy with things, which not become correct. However, I came much longer than these influences had the intention to let me do. So I think that I all the time have come longer. Today I understand it very well.
The long time this has taken, I think can be because these influences have had some kind of indications of times. Such indications of times can have locked a development in me, in proportion to time.
How these things are done against me, show how much these criminals rely on their methods.
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This time I have thought about writing some words about what happened in 1986. That was something mad. This very short account will only mention something about this with a few facts.
That situation in 1986, happened as a result of a development which had been in progress since 1976. Because of this extensive background, the meddling into our situation from stranger, become catastrophic. Actually, this background started already in 1974.
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In 1974, it developed an intricate problematic situation, which was difficult to understand, in the family of my wife. With talking to a small child, I found out that what was going on, was totally madness. I got this confirmed by others. This child had become victim of this situation. He did not see his father anymore; even he had a good relationship to him, and his father was a kind and pleasant man. All the people had started to lie about his father. They did not know anything at all, but talked and talked only nonsense and bad lies about him.
I talked to the child's mother and sisters, and got them to help the child in contact with his father again. But my wife's father, (she was not my wife yet, at that time,) who was brother to this child's mother; behaved totally incomprehensible. He would not stop hindering the child in getting in contact with his father; even it was obviously that it was wrong to hinder that. It looked like it was impossible for him to understand, that he was doing something wrong. It was he who drove forward this situation.
In 1986 these problems had developed without my knowledge about it; and that was one of the decisive factors which started to work against me in 1986. New people involved, did not know anything about this. But this is only one of many more factors. All those factors are too many, to be coincidences. This is something I must write about in a much more worked through way, than in this text. The situation has been started up by these criminals who use mind control, in 1976.
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In 1985, I called a medical office, and talked to a lady clerk. It was because of a very detrimental health problem connected with incomprehensible pains in my body (rheumatism). I called the lady clerk and said that I wanted to come because I wanted to find out about what this is. Afterwards I can go to a good doctor who are clever with this problem, I said.
When I come to the doctor, that was a temp. She said to me that it was a note in my case record, which she understood. She said that I had to be reported sick and come back to her. She could make me well again, she said.
Now I think that the lady clerk has said to this temp, that she must read this note in my case record and not let me go to another doctor. The lady clerk has started to care about that they must get the money, that I not shall go to another good and clever doctor with the money, but come with the money to them.
Afterwards a physical therapist said to me that this doctor is totally stupid. But I had become dependent of this doctor because of the sick pay. Now I also remember that the note in my case record only was something the other doctor had written down in passage without finding out anything. I had contacted him because of something else. He wrote down that note only as something he thought about, it was not something he had found out. It was wrong.
In 1986 I came bac to the same doctor as I was at in 1985. I wanted to tell her that her treatment had not worked. I become a little sick again the first day on my job again. Instead of being glad because I came to tell her about this, she became sour and started to say that I was depressed. She reported me sick because of that. I got surprised.
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The family of my daughter's mother, had started to hinder my daughter and me being together. That was because of what had happened in 1974. And it was because I had talked to my daughters mother about that her father had a special behavior in that regard. I said that it was, as if he had some kind of obsessive thoughts. I talked about that he should have got some help with these things. The family of my daughter's mother become mad because of this.
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One day I asked a friend if he could go and talk to my daughter's mother. He did that. But he met her father there, and talked to him instead. Her father told him that I should not be there. This friend did not know anything about these people. I said to him that he should not do anything more with this. He did not understand anything about it.
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A couple of times I had said to this friend that he was a CIA agent. I did not think that. So it was something I said joking. He become upset because of this, and wanted to talk to my doctor. I thought it could be good for him to talk to a doctor, because he had so many health problems. He talked to my doctor. I thought that was good, because then he could be well again. She said to me that she had talked to him. But she did not say what she had talked to him about. I thought it was about all his health problems. She was not sour any longer, and smiled as a sun instead.
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The doctor saw a psychiatrist when she had meal breaks. She said to me, that she could talk to her. I thought it could be good for the doctor to go to a psychiatrist with her problems.
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This psychiatrist later called the police to take me from my daughter. But I was not a patient by this psychiatrist. She did not have permission to do something like that. Afterwards this psychiatrist ruin all attempts of clearing up the situation. And because of that, the situation has become more and more destructive in all the years afterwards.
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Later this psychiatrist also got some other people to hypnotize my daughter so she not should understand the situation any more. Before that, she also had got me influenced by drugs and observe, so I after that not remembered anything any more.
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When the summer had come, I did not remembered anything about what had happened the last half year any longer. Because of that, it was impossible for me to do anything about it; I did not know what it was.
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It is much more. It is necessary to write much more to explain this. This is only a few key words, which make it possible to understand that it has happened something very wrong.
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The last weeks I have been taken up with getting the new computer to work, as it shall. Today I have succeed. I had to make some changes inside the operating system, before the computer become fit for use. I got to know what to do at the operating system's web site, so it has been done correctly, and everything now work fine. But I have had some trouble before I decided to go so far as to do this.
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Something noteworthy, is that it has been some days when I clearly have experienced that the tobacco pipes from my earlier life, which I have been taken up with, have stood out for me as something, which have power. I think that this power has to do with; how these pipes have to do with how I developed from my childhood when people smoked pipes around me, down to my youth years and adult life when I smoked a little pipes myself. This power has been experienced as crisp and clean; and because of that, I have thought about it for some days.
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As I wrote in the previous message Monday, May 25; the situation in 1986, started in 1974. The last week, I also have remembered more about how I tried to talk to different people, to correct how I had found out that a situation at that time in 1974 had developed to something wrong. I got some individuals to begin to talk about how the situation was something incomprehensible for them. Even so, the whole situation continued to develop very wrong.
I will not write more about this now, because I must do that much more thoroughly. I have thoughts about that influences by these criminals who use mind control, can have been done against someone regarding that situation. How it developed, can have to do with how these influences win.
A tendency I think can have been decisive; is something I recognize from what has happened to me later. It is that they can influence people to believe for sure, that things are what they only believe they are. It is that things really become in your mind; what you only believe they are.
All of these are different things, which work together. Therefore, I must use much time and work thoroughly to look at all these things at the same time. I have done great progress the last time, so that comes nearer and nearer.
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In the last message I had got the new computer to work as it should. But that lasted only that day. The next day the problem still was as before. This time the real cause is discovered. It was the mobile broadband modem, which was connected to the computer with a USB cable. It was the modem's hardware. If the modem hardware was connected to the computer, it caused that the computer got endless messages about that the computer was preparing automatic repair, at start‐up. To pass the problem, I found different menu pages it was possible to open at start‐up. When I closed these pages, the computer started. Typical the problem become more and more difficult. After I removed this broadband modem, the problem was gone. This caused very much trouble, and I have used all my time on this for some weeks now.
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When I was a youth, my mother gave me four Staffordshire Potteries mugs, which I used at my room. I have remembered that I had four such mugs, but I thought that I never should find them back. But now I also have found back these mugs. The four mugs at the picture below are corresponding. At picture 11 in the 'Photo Album' under the 'Image' link at the top of the page, it is possible to see the blue cup. We also had these mugs when we were married.
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It has been difficult to remember these mugs. It is like breaking through a barrier, to find back these mugs. It seems clear that such things are important in these influences. It is as if such things are something important, regarding how these influences have been done. That can be in different ways. One way, is that such things shall disappear together with other parts of the memory in one's mind. That such things shall change in one's memory, shall also change other parts of the memory. This is like finding the way back to whom I was. I think about this like cairns, which are placed to guide people, to show them the way.
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Today I thought I should take a picture of me. At sunrise I took the camera with me, and went for a walk. There is a better light outside. In the neighborhood I found a low stone wall, and I placed the camera on the wall and took this picture with the self‐timer. It has been a cold early summer in Oslo, but now it seems like it will be some sunny days. The summer months in Norway are June, July, and August.
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The last days I have thought more about how these criminals can use things regarding their influences. It seems for me, that it is something typical, that they often are focused about things. Things and identity work together.
I think I can end this development backwards now. I have written that many times. The time will show, if it will be like that this time. Every day has had new tings regarding this for me; therefore I have not been able to know what the next day will bring.
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In the message May 25, the third part, I wrote about how I contacted a medical office in 1985. The last days I have got one particular factor in my thoughts, about that. That is 'long graded sick pays'.
When I called this medical office, it was because I had noticed, that I had got noticeable reactions in my body, which I earlier had become more and more worn out because of. These things had earlier ruined my whole life. No medical treatments had worked.
Because I had become well again; and at that time, had started to get these reactions again. I this time had made up my mind, to find out what it was which made me well, and what it was which made me ill. I thought about that I not wanted to become graded sick pay, that only ruined my relationship to my job, and it did not help anything at all.
When I called this medical office, I said to the lady clerk, that I not wanted any medical treatment. I said that I only wanted to talk to a doctor about this, to find out what it is. When I had found out what it is, then I had thought to do different things by myself, to find out what I could do against it, I said. To be graded sick pay, was the last thing I wanted to be; it had only ruined for me, and never helped anything at all. If I not could be well again, I had to find another job, I thought.
When I came to the medical office, the lady clerk had a satisfied and smart look in her smiling face. And now I have got some thoughts about what that can be.
Two years earlier, I was at the doctor who had a temp at this time. That was because of a local muscle inflammation in one muscle in one of my legs. That time, I told the doctor about, that I earlier had got my work ruined for me because of health problems, which not had been healed. The doctor said that he would make a short note about that, because it could be something which had to do with the muscle inflammation. But this muscle inflammation was an independent thing.
Now I think about, that I said, that it had been long graded sick pays. The doctor asked if I become well again because of these long graded sick pays. I said yes. Now I think that the doctor can have written that in this short note. There was not time to talk more about it. The situation had been, that I always had become ill again when I started to work again, therefore all these graded sick pays had been totally for nothing.
I think this lady clerk looked at this note, and said to the temp that she must report me sick immediately, so they can start earning money on me, and not let me start to find out about these tings by myself.
The fact is that the doctor said to me, that it stood something in my case record, which she understood. I needed a long graded sick pay, she said. I had to come back to here, and she should make me well, she said. I become surprised, and experienced that the doctor knew self‐assured exactly what to do.
But when I started to work again, I become a little ill the first day on my job, exactly as many years earlier.
Today it is possible for me to understand how these things are. And I can take care of it very well, so I not become ill. No doctor has anything to do with that at all.
They earned much money to ruin my life that time. And later many people have earned much more money on ruin it much more. That is the only thing they have done.
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