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120. In the bottom of it all

Right away after the last text, I got some thoughts about something, which the person, who influenced me in 1975, have said. Similar thoughts have typical continued unstoppable. That happened already in the nineties. I think these influences are a systematic whole, which I don’t remember what is. However, because these thoughts came after the last text, I write these notes here.

When I think about such notes, they change all the time, and become more and more, and it don’t stop. I think such thoughts can continued, and become thousands of written pages. I think this whole influence, is something inaccessible for my thoughts, which my memory can’t remember. Here are these three notes:

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“And in the bottom of it all, lies a mighty message. That our whole cultural heritage, shall disappear in the garbage can. It shall be that we all care about money and things, and not about thoughts and feelings.”

“Your social class’s (the working class’s) power in the society, shall in the end be like zero. Money shall in the end be the power.”

“Something you don’t like, you shall do worse, and speak contemptibly and contemptuously about. You shall speak in poetical and figurative modes of expression. Something you like, you shall do better, and boast of.”

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When I wrote these notes, I had been thinking about; that when I earlier read a book, then that book took away my attention, from the previous book, which I had read. I thought about that books I had read, lay “on top of one another” in my mind, in a way that hid them all. I thought that all I read, only disappeared under this constant growing “pile of books” in my mind. I also thought the same could be with other memories, that memories lay “on top of one another” in my mind, and hid them all.

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How I lost all my memory in 1986, seems to be because of how the criminals had influenced different people around me, to cause that. In the summer 1986 didn’t remember anything about my life anymore. In addition to that, there also have been different destructive influences. The drug, or the drugs, that have been used in 1975, can also had destructive effects.

Before all of these, I also was much mentally ruined in 1962, when I was seven years old. That also is something the criminals had something to do with, in one way or another.

What have these criminals wanted to achieve, by ruin me so much? I don’t know. I only know what the influences have achieved.

There is no question that I have been influenced to find out wrong about this. It is also clear that I have been influenced to get others to understand wrong. It is obvious that the influences should have caused misinformation.

There is also something typical, that I have been influenced to over and over again, wanting to begin with new doings, or to begin with new doings. That typical influence, has been about very much different. All of it only has come to nothing. Maybe that has been because I shouldn’t develop one particular doing in my life.

In the course of these 31 years, since 1986, I slowly have come out of these influences. It became more and more influences, and step by step I understood about them.

It is no doubt about that the criminals are sure about that it is impossible to find out about this.

I think the criminals have made it difficult to find out about these things, but they haven’t made it impossible.

Despite of all these different damages of my mind; I in the end have become quite well again. Today my mind works well.

What do these influences in me do, when they haven’t achieved their goals? I think that some of them don’t work, and some of them nearly don’t work. I think about these influences as “plant seeds”. If they don’t start to grow; they sometimes become nothing, and they sometimes nearly become nothing. What I think about by writing that the influences start to grow, is that then the influences have started to be more and more of the person’s own personality and life. A comparison: If someone say to you that you shall walk around the Earth; then that becomes much, if you start to do that; but it becomes nothing, if you don’t start to do that.

Why I think that some influences don’t work, and some of them nearly don’t work; are because I think that some of them are passive, and some of them are active.

When I have understood, that an influence is something wrong; it is as if someone has asked me to do something, which I don’t want to do. By thinking about it that way, the effect of the influence can be the opposite, of what it was meant to be.

I think that different people sometimes can activate influences in one another. This is one of different manner of operations, which it is important to find out about. The criminals typical use combinations of influences. It is important to continue considering and think over things afterwards, and not to be in too great a hurry.

I think they influence some individuals, to activate many people; but I don’t know what they are doing. It can be the criminals have found out about typical manners, which people have as their behavior towards one another. When we don’t know about that, the criminals can achieve their calculated effects.

Something to be on one’s guard against; is a method, that influences people to reach a goal, by influences which in the end, have caused the opposite goal. Typical people in the end have forgotten what it was, which they wanted to achieve in the beginning.

The cause of that we haven’t found out about this before, isn’t that the influences work in a faint way, it is because the influences work in a powerful way. This powerful effect has been used to hinder us in finding out about it. But when we have found out something correct, then we have started to find out more and more about this crime.

It can be relevant to compare with an archaeological digging out. Even you only have found some few pieces, and sometimes only one little piece of something, then you know for sure that it must be more to find out about.

I think there are different things the criminals do, when they influence a person’s mind. In this text, I only have focused on some few things.

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I think that I am a victim of this crime, together with so many others in different ways.

In the bottom of each of us, are we all of us. It is only one world, with one whole meaning about it all. The most important for all of us, is it all. In the bottom of us all, is our cultural heritage. We all exist together.

February 26, 2017, David H. Hegg